heys ppl thanks for the support, but im sorry to say that this wed night's performance has been cancelled! haha. due to some probs with the organiser. shall update you guys soon okay? xie xie :D

boooos. im emo emo emo. cos i cant do econs! i suck at it la. especially when all the different types of graphs start coming in. sighs. i think my level of intelligence is dropping. ): rv demoralised me. aj demoralised me further. im now left with nothing! i want my self-esteem and confidence back!! ):

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on tuesday night.. i came home from singing lesson, to find 3 little creatures sitting on my bed. strangely enough, they were all facing the window. so i screamed, "ah meee！你是不是又动我的东西！！" and my mum went,"做什么！没有啦！你问papa!" so i stormed off to ask my dad and he said "我让它们晒太阳啦！" and i laughed and laughed and laughed non-stop.. after which my mum and sister came to look and they laughed hysterically for sometime too.. they looked damn cute la. 3 tiny little things on a comparatively big bed!

this is a closer shot of them!

haha looks like my dad can be quite cute too. (((:

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oh in addition, sitong will be having a performance at some bugis cafe near bugis street next wed, 30th jan, at 7pm! oddly enough, i got invited by her to sing as well, with four of her other pro friends, one of whom is cherlynn.. so im stresssssed ah. even though there will only be ONE solo song.. but im still stressed can. -sighs- still havent really decided on which song to sing.. but whoever's free and willing to support, you guys must go k! :D

im back! sorry for not updating recently.. basically, i don't know what i've been doing.. probably STILL trying to get into the momentum of studying.. so if any of you feels stressed, PLEASE DO call me up and try to stress me up! thanks in advance!

im currently in a super pissified mode.. first i woke up early in the morning (actually not that early. haha), intending to do my third IBM assignment.. but the assignment's still not on the portal!! Fortunately, GH decided to be nice.. so he sent me the qns in word format and word pad format.. and guess wad!? i couldnt open BOTH files. so as i got increasingly pissed, i went to check my emails.. replied to some.. and there were soooo many Facebook mails! so i decided to log in to Facebook.. but my silly comp just cannot connect to Facebook! so damn irritating!! plus my parents were like doing early spring cleaning (and still doing now).. and they kept nagging bout me not studying.. totally annoying!! RAWR. and the weather's damn humid!! spoils my mood!!

anyway, last tuesday had singing lesson as usual.. was in a super bad mood too, due to some people and some stuff.. let's just say i havent gotten use to giving in to ppl.. been trying to compromise and accomodate.. but i havent been doing that well in this area.. and in the end, i got super frustrated over others and myself.. sigh. i really really dislike changes. oh and if you guys are still guessing , no, im not talking bout anyone from the production comm la. let's just hope the Vday performance goes well.. yup.

oh yea! i bought mr 萧's book already! hehe. been reading bit by bit. haha.

some things just remind you of some people.. haha.. memories~

RAWR. read from a forum that 萧敬腾's book is out in Kinokuniya!! and we actually went Kino yesterday after handing in the exam fees at RELC!! BOOOOS. ):

hopefully can get it by this weekend! =p

someone actually mentioned that she had a feeling that i was enthu in singing club cos i wanna get into exco. didnt know ppl would actually think this way. realised friends can be very surface and that includes myself. i mean, im no angel. there are times when i participated in badmouthing others or just thinking bad bout others. i guess it's sthg i can learn from too. 我要用真心对待身边的每一个人。i will try my best.

"Do not judge."

okay this is gonna be a short one, i hope. haha.

visited the first tertiary cell on friday.. the people there were okay i guess.. we had an ice-breaker, did praise and worship and for the rest of the time, we shared bout our BIG DREAMS. come to think of it, i don't really have a dream, much less a big dream. maybe it's due to my practicality or my follow my mind>>>follow my heart kind of character, a dream should remain as a dream. haha. having a dream could probably make one more focused in life.. but to me, there's too much to do in the process of reaching for it. so somehow, to me, there's no point in having dreams. we should be 脚踏实地 in life, shldn't we? haha. but it was really thought provoking.. and since i had to share.. i said sthg like maybe i would like to work with children, or specifically autistic kids. yuppps. i seriously thought bout it before, especially after i got to work with an autistic child for CIP like a few years back.. i even told my parents bout it before.. but of course, they said that it wasnt easy ( every job has it's own difficulties i guess) and that it's not practical. haha. see? anyway, i think this will constantly be at the back of my mind la. anyway, im really glad i took the tiny step of going to cell. apart from it being my year 2008 resolution, it's really time for me to put in some effort towards spiritual growth. haha. i hope i'll keep getting motivated to experience more of Him this year. (:

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and now, congratulate me!! im finally feeling the stress.. it's like the sudden realisation that prelim's in one month's time.. and exams in bout four month's time? it's impossible to finish everything by prelims.. this is always sthg i dislike myself for.. having plans and not following them.. or even procrastinating.. sighs. i really wanna be smiling in september though.. =/

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i've decided to stop worrying and pondering bout all the unnecessary things.. there are many more things to do, seriously.. as compared, some things are just less significant.. yup.

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exactly ONE MONTH to MY BDAY!! ONE MONTH to becoming 20!! *sobs*

HEllO 2008!

had a funny nightmare that day.. i dreamt of my teeth falling out! not all of them.. but when i used my tongue on them (like how i used to do it when i was young), they'd fall off! how scary is that!! BO GEH!! i don't want!! ):

according to www.dreammoods.com,

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence (!!?) or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

In the latest research, it has been shown that women in menopause have frequent dreams about teeth. This may be related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition which may be applicable to some dreamers.

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicate that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if your are telling lies. It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.

haha well.. just some interpretation which may or may not be true. =p

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anyway, recently on 综艺大哥大，there's this 大魔镜 segment whereby magicians compete against each other.. and there's this guy called 李冠志 who totally has the 孙协志 feel la! hahaha. of course, it's the MVP Valentine look and not the balding look now. =s 56's album coming out soon! hopefully, it's not as bad ( in my opinion) as the last one..

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today my piano teacher asked me if i've met any teacher who has given up on me! =.= hahaha. and she said i kept asking questions and some of them are nonsensical!! and she started laughing hysterically after that!! RAWR!! WHAT IS THIS MAN. ahahahaha. i feel INSULTED. hahaha. sometimes i think to myself and feel that i was probably MOST MATURE when i was in upper sec. then when i was to jc, my maturity dropped to the lower sec level. and now im at the primary sch level! *gasp* hahahaha. maybe life's been too boring. i cant help but think of silly ideas to entertain myself! =p

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exam timetable's out! i awoke to GH's msg this morning. haha. it was his maiden attempt to stress me out! let's see.. am i stressed? hahaha just a wee bit! :D shall check it out!

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alrightey ppl! do keep up with your year 2008 resolutions now and then! haha. (: